Am I Happy?

by | Sep 30, 2012

Yesterday I treated myself to a pedicure, and the woman giving me the pedi (Anna–we’ll call her) asked me what I do. That is always a loaded question, because I do so much. We all do so much. I told her that I am a spokesperson for happiness, faith and optimism…which in essence, is what I am. I can imagine myself waving a flag and standing up for the rights of these three musketeers! Anna then asked me if I am happy. And my answer was, sometimes.
The one thing I know for sure about myself is that I am honest. Not always with myself, but with others…for sure. So I told Anna the truth. I am not always happy. I do experience happiness quite a lot, which is why I feel guided to represent Happy. By nature, I am an optimistic person. I do always see the glass half full, the beauty in the rainy day, the gift in a cancelled vacation or failed project. But I do not always feel happy. And I embrace it. I realize that to truly feel happy, I have to understand how I got there. And if I allow myself to glaze over things that are not pleasant, and sweep them under the rug, I am only kidding myself, and whatever I chose to ignore will come back and bite me in the ass, at some point!

Each experience in life is designed to teach us a lesson. Sometimes it takes quite a while to figure out what the lesson is. If we don’t take the time to nurture our feelings, we will be challenged again by another incident to face our lesson. In essence, if we ignore the things that make us unhappy, chances are if there is a lesson we are here to learn, we will have to learn it at some point. A similar incident will show up until we make the change we are intended to make, and learn and grow from the challenge.

Life throws us a lot of un-expected punches. And it is our job to respond to them, and not fall over! I am grateful for all of the punches life has thrown me, and hope I am doing a good job responding, learning, making necessary changes for my own personal growth, and being more honest with myself.