The Happy Me

by | Feb 29, 2012

I am finding spending time alone, I mean really alone, is completely therapeutic, and pertinent for self-discovery. I am in London supporting a friend who is launching a global networking website with a heart. I was invited as a guest with the intention of having a presence for Spreadhappy (my website) on the site. That is a work in progress, and what the future holds I do not know. I am willing to live in the magic and the moment. I find in life, when I allow myself the gift of being, and living my essence (love), plans and intentions fall away, and what is meant to happen or be explored comes to the forefront. What I least expect shows it’s face, and that is when miracles occur. Right now, my miracle is no schedule, no commitments, and a 3-day date with myself.

As I walked the streets of London yesterday, I found myself back at a church I had wandered into on my last trip to London when I attended a course on love, given by one of my ‘faves’, Dr. Robert Holden. I sat in this church, no thoughts, just stillness. It turns out this church holds lectures with the likes of Dr. Holden, Byron Katie, Marianne Williamson and many other spiritual teachers. I guess that explains the draw for me, especially because I am Jewish and did not spend much time in churches as a child. My husband is Catholic, and not practicing, so I can’t explain the draw because of his affiliation. The draw is one of oneness…for me.  I don’t subscribe to separation, I subscribe to love, respect and seeing all as equal. I am thankful that I have had many teachers along the way. Friends that have opened my heart to different ways of processing faith. I believe just having faith is enough, no need to put it in a box or label it.  As my journey continues, I am filled with tremendous gratitude.  I am in awe of the experiences I am having since I have made the decision to dedicate my life to love and teaching happiness.  Happiness sounds like balloons and cake, but it is so far from that at it’s core.  It is a spiritual journey of self-discovery, self-acceptance, love and authenticity.  I have learned so much about myself along this journey, and continue to explore, admit to myself who I really am, address my own challenges, speak and walk my truth.  I am incredibly grateful for the support and love of my family, as my own path has changed within the last few years, and it has taken me some time to find my direction.  The gift is I listened to myself, with out a road map, just a heart.  The heart has lead me to the happy me, and for that, I am grateful!